Monday, August 8, 2011

Baby fever...

I'm currently having that oh so familiar pang in my heart.  The one that says I want another baby.

I'm on the fence about having another baby.  I know I want another baby...but should I and if so, when is the question...and should we adopt?  I had a lot of health issues and preterm labor with my last baby.  Also, I'm open to and love the idea of adoption.  The husband and I were looking into adoption and had already received our paperwork to begin the process when I found out I was pregnant with Cedric.  I suffered from infertility and all that jazz.  My mind is so confused on everything...so the hubby and I settled on the idea of waiting and letting life happen.   I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason...so let it be.  When the time feels right and the choice feels right...we will leap. 

I read a book lately that tears me up to think about.  I rarely talk about my miscarriage that happened a few years ago.  But the book dealt with the subject and it just makes my mind wonder.  I have this tendency to block out painful things...and ummmm...not doing so well lately.  Last night it just hit me...I lost a little life.  I tried to deal with my miscarriage as scientifically as possible...but every once in awhile...it stings and the reality hits me. But life has this amazing way of working out though...  




I have two beautiful, healthy little boys that are my world and I thank God daily for them.  Who knows what the future holds and I find that an exciting thought to ponder.

Ok...speaking of the boys...I have to go shoe shopping for my oldest today.  School starts next week and it's the last item for his back to school adventure to begin. Sheeeshhhh...I can't believe how fast the kids grow when you simply blink.  Cedric has become a little parrot.  He LOVES to yell pizza and pretend to be a little ghost.  Spencer is such a kind little boy and smart too.  He has started reading his second Percy Jackson book.  Two amazing little gentlemen in the making I must say.  I'm blessed.


Ok...off to start this day...Have a great week!!!

2 comments:

Joe's blog said...

Shoe shopping for children is always frustrating here in Germany. The good ones are way too expensive and the cheaper ones don't fit so you end up with nothing after having tried 500...

Children are wonderful. If I had the possibility and enough money to make them a good life I would have 5. :-)

~Nikki Pullen said...

I about lost my mind shopping for shoes for my 8 year old. His answer to each shoe was they fit fine all while my younger son played with display shoes.

I agree with you...I'd have a house full of kids if I could : ) Have a great week!!!