YAY!!!!

Garage door fixed...one thing checked off the list of many. Only cost me $208. $208 is a lot of money...but it was going to cost me more. The guy worked super fast so we got a lower rate. Yay!!! I think I'm going to have Eric put up some of our halloween stuff this weekend. I may not be able to do it...but I'll be damned if I don't have at least a few decorations around the house. Ok...now to get lunch.

Last night woes...

So the joys of having an asthmatic child who coughs and chokes himself in his sleep. Spen freaked out last night screaming...I ran into his room ( dumb I know I'm on bed rest, but when your baby screams you go running) to find him covered in vomit. FUNNNNNNNNNN. He has this persistent cough from his drainage. He chokes himself with it...and he gagged himself in his sleep and made himself get sick. He had it all over his head. He was scared he had the stomach flu. I told him no...he just gagged himself. Poor Eric cleaned up the mess while I took him off to the shower. My poor baby. I wish he would feel better and his nose would dry up. We go through this every change of season. He had a cold and I think his allergies are playing a role too. I just hate it for him.

I put some of the baby stuff away. I have some stuff I need to go buy, but I will have to send Eric out to buy them. I need to still get a breast pump and nursing pads along with bottles. I'm going to see how my milk comes in for that stuff...so I guess I'll send him out while I'm in the hospital. I still need a nursing gown. It's annoying because I waited to get some stuff thinking I could before the baby was born. Grrrrr..no such luck.

I still need to get a bassinet or a co-sleeper too. We'll figure something out. I found one cheaper at walmart online...it's a co-sleeper for $99. That's cheaper than the $189 I originally wanted. I need to get my butt in gear and start ordering stuff. Ok..off to make some phone calls.

I need to learn how to walk...

I fell yet again last night...or shall I say this morning. It was 1 or 2 am. Spen woke me up coughing and I had to pee for the 100th time that night. I got out of bed and tripped over all the bags I had eric bring up from the shower...(I wanted to go through them in bed) and thank God I caught myself on my knees and hands. I ended up scaring eric to death. He jump up in bed asking what was wrong. It was kinda funny once I realize I wasn't hurt. I made a lot of noise trying to catch myself with the gift bags. The crazy thing is bags were pushed out of the way. I think I was half asleep and drifted walking. Poor spen has his annual cough. He can't stand drainage and so he coughs. He coughs NON-STOP. Eric got up gave spen a drink, gave him throat spray (already had given him a 12 hr. cough medicine so he couldn't have anything else) and then I gave him nose spray. He fell back asleep soundly. Only to start coughing this morning. I kept him home from school because there is no way in hell they would allow him to stay in class with this cough. It's not a productive cough at all..it's just a habit cough. So I called his doctor (the one he saw just yesterday) and am waiting to see if he will call in a cough medicine. He needs something Strong to relax his throat.

So with all the commotion last night my blood pressure spiked. I could feel it..my body was tingly and my heart was racing a mile a minute...so I laid on my left side and went back to bed.

I'm tired today...and I'm tired of bed rest. Eric thinks I'm going to have the baby on my b-day, adrienne says the 12th and I have no idea. I just want him to be healthy. I still need to do my thank you cards...and put away the gifts from the shower. Ok...off to take a shower.

Update...

Spen just has a head cold...yay! No antibiotics needed. It's funny Eric and the doctor get along really well. Last time he took him he let Eric look inside spens ear to see what an ear infection looks like. It's like no matter how old a man gets they're always little boys wanting to show off their toys..lol.

I'm super stoked on spen just having a head cold. They went ahead and tested him for the flu because Eric told him I'm preggos and about to pop and to be on the safe side they did. I need to get spen a flu shot. I got mine last week. It swelled and bruised...always fun. I can't wait until the baby comes...this weather has gotten me in the mood for autumn. I need to open the windows. I also need to put all the stuff I got from the baby shower up. It's in my living room right now. I need to work on thank you cards too. I might do that today and have Eric carry all the stuff up tonight when he gets home. Sounds like a plan...ok..pointless blog.

I'm going nuts...

This bed rest is driving me nuts. Poor spen is sick. I think he has a sinus or ear infection. He's running a fever and is coughing. He does this every time he gets sick. He coughs because he doesn't like the feeling of drainage in his throat. He coughed all night. He also said he was dizzy. Which leads me to think ear infection. He isn't too lethargic or sick acting. He just said he has a headache. Well, he needs to go to the doctor and I can't take him. His dr. is across town, and I might have to park far off in the parking lot. I don't want to drive by myself too. So Eric is going to take him for me. He has in the past. I just hate not being able to do it. I also hate that I am keeping my distance from him. I really can't get sick right now. Last time I caught his cold I ended up with bronchitis and had to take tons of meds just to get over it. I feel so bad for him...I want to scoop my baby up in my arms and hold him...but I can't. Poor Eric, he is being awesome. He had to take care of him last night...make me dinner, and get up and go into work at 5am. They were shutting power off at 2am at work. Not to mention the times he got up to check to see if the power came back on there. He's such a hard worker. Now he will have to hurry and take spen to the dr and then go back to work. The control freak in me is hating not doing everything myself.

Last night I had cramping in my cervix. I was kinda worried I was going to have to go to the hospital. I laid down and after awhile it stopped. I really don't see this kid staying in there for too much longer. I pray he does....but I know he probably won't.

I'm waiting for spens dr's office to open so I can make an appointment. I go back to the doctors Thursday. I hope both visits go well.

I love my hubby...he deserves a break. He just runs and runs. He's going to crash soon I know. He's taking a week off when the baby comes, and then he will be doing half days for another week or so. He has two weeks he could take...but we want to try to take the second week off during christmas. We're weirdos and love all the fun christmas things. I can't wait...this year we'll have a little baby for xmas.

It's becoming real with all the baby gear around the house. Spen tested out the new stroller yesterday. It was funny...the boys were being boys throwing a baby doll around and in and out of the stroller. I just hope they treat the new baby a little more nicer.

Ok...off to get spen ready for the doctor.

I'm bored...

It just occurred to me that I will miss the opening of the target near my house. Boo hoo...pity party. I have been so stoked on going to it. Oh well, it will be there when I can walk around again. Eric picked up the cutest sweater romper today while shopping for the stroller. I got so many cute clothes. I need to start putting them away. Eric and I really need to get a closet organizer for the spens, and cedrics closets. But oh well...in time.

Here's a few our the goodies we got.

We still need to get the baby swing...and co-sleeper. I'm on the fence about that. I have so many things I need to be doing. I think I might have eric bring the bags up stairs so I can start to organize the baby clothes and work in bed putting clothes on hangers...

Yesterday was a blast...

I need to upload some pics...if I can find some that doesn't make me look like a whale..lol. I had a blast at the baby shower. My mom totally out did herself. A lot more people showed up than I thought. It was full of fun and good food. I think everyone enjoyed themselves. I sat on the couch or in a chair most of the time. I hated I didn't get to make my rounds and talk to everyone. But that's bed rest for you. I felt like crap yesterday. My stomach kept doing weird pings of pain. So I really tried to not over do it. Poor spen was tired and ended up sick. I don't know if it's a head cold or allergies. He had a bad headache and was tired. He and Eric had gotten up early to do the cub scout rocket races. Spen came in second place. Woo hoo...he was so excited. I hated that I had to miss it. But I'm on bed rest..and the other night I was having real contractions...so that's life. I'll see it next year.
It broke my heart last night...spen wanted to curl up on me...I could only have him lay on my legs...and pat him. A. he couldn't get in my face...I don't want to get sick and b. my belly is too big for him to fit on. It broke my heart. Usually, I scoop him up when he's sick.

Eric was so cute at the shower. He was all excited about the baby stuff. We ended up putting together the play yard. It's super cute. Today he's going to get the travel system with the gift cards and money. I feel really blessed to have so many good friends and family members. I need to work on my thank you cards. I also want to have Eric go out to buy some more baby gear. I miss my shopping..lol. I'll live through him. I could shop online..but it's not the instant gratification that I crave.

Ok...off to make phone calls. Ps...thanks to everyone who came out and thanks for all the wonderful gifts...xoxo's!!!

Modified bedrest

I was put on modified bed rest today. Fun...eyes rolling. I have no problems with resting...if I didn't have so much to do. I still need to finish picking up the house for the shower. I need to help my mom hang up decorations. Blah blah blah. I just hope the baby is healthy. I'm only 34 weeks...not yet full term. Hopefully, he will stay in there until 37 weeks. I'm upset..and praying everything turns out fine. I'm trying to look at the bright side...I can catch up on my shows.

Just a little nice pic of Mah Boo....Anderson...

Gotta love the silver fox :) Awww.....giggles.

The nerves...

The nerves are starting to kick in. I'm nervous about delivery. I'm nervous about the baby's health. I'm nervous about Spen and him feeling left out. So reason has to be applied to my crazy mind...

- The delivery. I've done it before...young and dumb and I can do it again..older and wiser. I know what I'm getting into...and God bless modern medicine I hopefully, will not feel anything again. If I do...it's temporary.

- The baby's health. I have done all I can do. I've taken my meds. Stayed active. I'm not running marathons, but I've kept my weight down and I'm not eating 5 arbys...lol. If we are presented with a challenge I pray God gives us the strength to get through it. But mostly, I pray he doesn't. Spen spent the 1st year of his life in physical therapy. Thinking he had CP was scary and the unknown even more scarier. All I can do is love the baby, and give the baby the means to thrive. I have a wonderful partner this time round, and I hope and pray our strength does not have to be tested.

- Spen feeling left out. Eric and I incorporate spen in every avenue of our lives. He is part of us. We plan on doing this with the birth. He won't be in the room, but he will be the third person to hold the baby. Our "plan" notice the quotations...life never works out so smooth...but anyway...our plan is for spen to come in right after delivery...after the baby is somewhat cleaned up. Then have a little bonding time as a family. In theory. In fact...I'll probably deliver while Eric and Spen are camping next month with the cub scouts. My luck...in the tub or on the toilet...I'm clueless like that. Eric and spen have a really good bond now. They are both so damn excited about the cub scouts. They're working on a rocket for this weekends races. Spen follows eric around the house while he does projects. It's cute. I'm truly blessed...I thank God everyday for such a wonderful family. Watch this kid will be the spawn of satan...lol. I was lucky with spen...he was the perfect baby. They say you never get lucky twice. Fingers crossed I do.

I hate hormones. I've been on the verge of crying over the dumbest things. I've also been so freaked out lately. I feel sorry for Eric because I know I'm driving him nuts. I'm driving myself nuts.

I can't wait to start working out again. I know weird. But I want to get back into shape...and now with my meds I feel so much better. It's scary how run down I was feeling before my thyroid meds. I thought I was crazy or had a disease. It's amazing what a little pill can do for you.

I can't wait for the shower this weekend. I'm looking forward to all the wee little baby clothes. I love baby clothes. They're soooo cute and tiny. Ok off to clean.

It's a monday fo sureeeee.

Yay...The nursery is just about done. I need to buy a floor lamp and bring my glider from the basement to upstairs. I also need to hang the blinds...but woo hoo. Eric did such an awesome job painting. I love it. I think it's fun, and has a cute baby feel to it. Best of all...all the decals can come off the wall...no sanding. I love murals...but they screw your walls up.

It was so cute today. I was on the phone with my mom and I got a call and the caller id said jefferson county. So I knew instantly is was spens school. I knew either he was sick or hurt. So I click over and I hear this tiny voice asking if I have time if I could bring his library books up to school. It was funny. I was taken aback expecting it to be an adult...not spen. He was so happy when he saw me bringing them in. I remember freaking out over things like that.

Last night I ordered a bear kit for spen to make cedric. Spen and I made his "beary" as he has lovingly named him. He loves him and still sleeps with him. The bear looks like a little creature now...lost fur and the stuffing is hanging out. But that's his pride and joy. I searched all over the internet looking for the same kit and I found one for 4 bucks on ebay. I was so excited. I bought it and spen and I will make one for the new baby. Spen was excited too.

I need to clean so much today. It's really sad the shape my house is in. I need to touch up painting some places down stairs. My to do list could go on forever...so with that I shall start it.

Bored..

I'm waiting for Eric to get home...and I was looking online for a funky new hair do. I stumbled upon this one. I'm tired of my plain jane hair...so after the baby is born I'm thinking about doing this. I want a new look...yes, yet again. Eric will freak out. He loves me in funky hair styles.. and probably won't keep his hands off of me...lol...maybe we'll have another baby on the way...joking. Dear Jesus...joking. But I want a change of pace...and I look good with red and black/brown hair. So yippie skippy. I just don't want to look too suicide girlish, I do have to take spen to his cub scout meetings and help out with class parties. I also have clients to please...so who knows.

Floors

I realized I never updated with pics...so enjoy...


I need to take pics with the baseboards on and furniture in the family room. But oh well... My hubby rocks so hard. He did this all himself...with me hovering over telling him where to place what piece of wood...lol. Actually, I'm beyond proud of him. He deserves a medal. Not only did he work his ass off in Michigan and at work...he came home and did this for us. I love him to pieces.

Is happy....

So I got the hat I ordered last week in. I'm beyond ecstatic on how adorable it is. There's the pic. How cute. I'm going to try to replicate that picture some how. God willing...lol.

I also ordered my sleeping pixie hat for the baby. I'm obsessed with hats now. The woman did such an awesome job on the bear hat. Eric thought it was adorable too. Here is the pixie.
Same colors. I can't wait to get it.

This weekend I vow the nursery will be done! I have to get the house cleaned and in order before the shower which is next saturday. I have no idea who all is coming. I can't wait to see all the wee little baby clothes. That's the best part. I'm stoked a lot of the guys are coming. I love coed showers. Eric is just as much part of this baby as me...and I will be reminding him this at 4 am feedings..lol.

My glucose test came back and they were normal...woo hoo! I'm so happy with that. I can indulge in sugar and sweets.

I bought myself a sports nursing bra yesterday. I think I will like that better than the old fashioned ones esp in the beginning. I can't wait to get the house ready and have the baby. I need to still buy myself things to go in my bag for the hospital. I bought some pjs, but my mom had a good point, I may have to wear a gown. I can't remember how long they come in and check you after you have the baby. If so I'll pick one up this weekend. I also need to get spens bag packed. I want to fill a bag full of dollar store games and toys for him to play with while I'm in the hospital.

Ok...off to shower and shop.

So busy...

I have million things I should be doing...but here I sit. I'm tired. I didn't sleep very well. I'm super pissed at myself for missing lunch yesterday. I screwed up my diet...so I have to wait another day to take my glucose test. Oh well. That's life. Yesterday was beyond nuts. Eric and I had a party and a meeting. It was beyond busy. Next weekend is crazy too. I hate committing to something...and having to run like crazy to make it happen. Saturday was stressful, Eric and Spen had to work the cub scout booth and then Alli had a party. Grrrrrr...

I'm excited scott is coming to my baby shower. I know how random and weird. But he's always funny...and I think it will be funny to watch him play the games. Our shower isn't really a typical baby shower anyway. It's more of a celebration. Eric and I have had our ups and downs and losses with trying to have another baby. So this is more of a party celebrating life. Also, another reason to throw a party...lol. We love having friends over. We feel truly blessed with this pregnancy and we've had scares with it from the start. I will be so happy to have the baby in my arms and be done. It's nerve wrecking. From scares of ectopic pregnancy to thyroid and fertility issues. I just want my baby in my arms.

My child's name. If I hear another person comment on the baby's name in a negative way I will not be held accountable for my actions. Cedric...it is a welsh name. No..the entertainer did not come up with it...grrrr... The name was invented by Sir Walter Scott for his novel, Ivanhoe. And since many of the people commenting have no idea about saints...(xavier)Derived from the Basque place name Etxaberri meaning "the new house". This was the surname of the Jesuit priest Saint Francis Xavier (1506-1552). He was a missionary to India, Japan, China, and other areas in eastern Asia, and he is the patron saint of the Orient and missionaries. His surname has since been adopted as a given name in his honor, chiefly among Catholics. No, it is not just an x-men character. Not everyone wants to name their little bundle of joy everyday names. I somehow doubt Cedric is the equal to naming a child apple or another fruit. I'm just tired that certain people keep injecting their opinions when they have not been asked for. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........ I somehow doubt Cedric Xavier Pullen is a horrific name and I will be scarring my child. No, his name is not as classy as Summer Sky or John Jacob. I'm just tired. I have more battles I'd rather be fighting than my kids name. Funny thing is...I got the same remarks with Spencer Henry...and now everyone loves it. So get over it...

I have so much to do..and I've ranted enough.

Fall is around the corner...

I can't wait for fall this year. Middletown's festival is this weekend...I walked some yesterday at it and my stomach was killing me...so I had to come home and lay down. Eric and Spen are selling popcorn in a booth for the cub scouts. They're both so cute. Spen and the boys got to sell popcorn to Pat Day yesterday. It was awesome. Eric called me and told me...too bad I missed it. From what I hear Spen is the selling machine. He even was getting donations with that cute little face of his. He's so damn adorable. He knows how to use his looks...this will haunt me later in his teenage years.

My niece turns 8 years old today. It's nuts. I'm going to take her to get her nails done next week sometime. I know she'll have a blast. I need to go and pick her up a gift from Spen and a card. Her party is around 4:30. Tomorrow is Spens friends skating party. I swear for the next few weeks every weekend will be a party. I hope I can keep up. Our shower is the 26th.

I have been having so many pains in my stomach the past few days. I think the baby is dropping.

I bought the teddy bear hat I've been stalking for months from etsy last night. I ended up having the woman custom make it for me. She was super sweet. I still need to order the other one...the long sleeping hat. I'm going to take pictures of the baby in them. Too cute!!! That will be the birth announcements. Knocking on wood.

We have sooo many things to do. I mailed the invites yesterday. I need to get the nursery done. I want it done for the shower. People always enjoy looking at tiny baby things and baby nurseries. I know I do. I can't believe how soon the baby will be here. It's kinda crazy.

Off to go shopping.

I'm such an idiot

I forgot to include the little cards that tell everyone where I'm registered in my invites. I was so happy with getting them addressed and sealed (pull and seal envelopes = awesome) that I completely forgot. Oh well.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............


Tomorrow is my doctor appointment. Long story short I'm going to see if she will discuss inducing me...and picking a date. Hopefully, she will be open to the idea. Not now...but next month. I ready for this kid to be born. I want to bend again...lol.
I picked spens birthday and he was induced. I'm not sure what dates work for her and I will have to see how my body is doing. I just want everything organized and prepared. I want spen to be taken care of, and Eric to be off work. I'm such a planner. Also, I'm scared I won't have my doctor delivery me, esp since I have to go to baptist east. Long story there. I'm also fearful to go into labor on my own. I've never experienced that...and spen came really fast. They told me to hurry and get to the hospital with my next baby. Spen was practically falling out...so I don't want to be some TLC special "I delivered in my driveway story"..lol.

We have so many parties over the next month to attend it's nuts. I need to buy b-day gifts for all the kids. September is a busy month.

ok..pointless.

Busy busy bee....

Today I have a million things to do. I'm trying to figure out addresses for the baby shower. I suck at this. Actually, it's not a question of not being able to do the task, but rather...I HATE it. Oh well. The baby shower will be loads of fun. It's a coed retro shower. We have adorable old fashioned decorations and the colors are baby blue and brown. It's going to be fun. I made my invites...because I'm a weirdo who enjoys torturing myself with crafts. They actually turned out really pretty if I may say so myself.

Ok...updates...lets see...

- I fell yesterday. I was picking spen up from school and my foot slipped down in a hole in the school yard. Besides from almost dying of embarrassment, I was kinda freaked out making sure I didn't hurt the baby. Thank God I caught myself and only landed on my knee. I still was shook up and felt like a complete idiot. But that's life.

- We are almost done with the floors. Yay. It has taken us since Saturday. Which is really fast timing for us. They look beautiful, and I feel absolutely spoiled with them. I love my hubby dearly. He's so freaking talented!!! I hate the fact I couldn't get down there and help more...but I did decide on the pattern and hand him pieces of wood. It's funny...who would think making a random pattern would be mind tasking..but it was. I'll post pics when we are done.

- Target...damn them..damn them and their such low sale prices. I about brought the store home with me yesterday. I stopped by the bardstown rd. target and all the home stuff was on sale. I ended up only buying some cool mirrors. It took all my reserve strength to not do more damage than that. But, I was good. I love the mirrors...they are very modern and look perfect in the formal living room. My next purchase will be new area rugs. I love my Eric...he's funny...he brought it up and said that he could already read my mind. He said that since I have my floors...now I'll need my rugs. He knows me so well. I told him it would be like wearing a fabulous new outfit with no accessories. He gets it. Target has the two I want...so I'm happy I don't have to worry about that.

- Eric and I are not allowed to buy one halloween item this year. It's killing both of us. Anyone who knows us, knows we are addicted. We seriously have a huge collection of halloween junk..and always want more. But, we are trying to save money for baby stuff. I did however purchase a fall candle yesterday. It smelled so delicious. I had to. It's so sad, but I doubt we will put up that much halloween stuff this year. With the baby coming around that time, I just won't feel like dealing with it.

- The nursery has taken a backseat to the floors. It is almost done being painted...but after we finish the floors..that is the next task. I have basically everything...I just need Eric to make my frames. I also want to try to take one family shot of all of us. I doubt it will work out considering how the last photo shoot went.

- I need to go to the store. I have a long list of items to buy. I'm excited, Eric got a bonus this year. So, we will probably be spending that on baby gear. But yay for free money! It will be taxed..damn the man. But it's nice for the company to see and appreciate Eric's hard work. I'm truly blessed with such an honest hard working hubby. He's the greatest :) Now I won't tell him that...his head would just swell..lol. Ok. I'm gone.

Yippie skippy...

Eric is driving home as I type. Woo hoo. I missed him so much. This has been a hard week. I've cried a lot of the days...damn hormones. He should be home by 12:30. I can't wait to hug and kiss him. Ok..enough mushy stuff.

I'm currently waiting for spen's principle to call me back. I'm fed up with him getting sick. Today he has diarrhea. He has already had an upper respiratory infection and strep throat. He hasn't even been in school a full month. It's because the kids in his class are forced to share their supplies. We had to send in a vast amount of supplies, only to find out that they are all shared??? Kids are dirty...and they are germ spreading little robots. So hence, spen being sick. I'm speaking to spen's principle about this. I plan on Tuesday to send in a soft pencil bag full of the supplies that spen will use. Everything will be labeled and he is to only use the items. Hello, how dumb does JCPS have to be....H1N1, shigellosis, besides just common illnesses are all spread from hand to mouth contact. Kids wiggle their teeth, cough, Lord know what they do in the bathroom, and then touch pencils, crayons and share their germs. I'm tired of it. No more. Call me a germ-a-phobe...call me a freak...but I'm tired of him getting sick...and I really do not want the baby to get sick either. But I digress....

Today is the start of our weekend!!! Woo hoo...new floors here we come. One step to this house being done.

Today...

I'm tired today...

I'm annoyed today...

I really am missing Eric today...

I wish many wishes today... and only a few will every come true...

I have a long list of to do's today. I doubt I'll do half of the list.

Blahhhhhhhhhhh.....


I need a maid...it's official. My house is too big, and full of too much junk for me to keep it clean. I think it's actually all the damn projects we have going on. This weekend the floors shall be installed, and then next week the nursery will be completed. Sureeeeeeeeeee....one can simply dream.

Off to sleep I go.

Truths

Truth...One simple word, yet so unyielding. Why do people lie? Why do some people feel the need to project their lives in such ways of outlandish falsities? I don't understand. I mean, I understand a simple white lie every once and again, but not full blown delusional fairy tales. I think the majority of the time it is insecurity with oneself. I guess, my honesty is shocking to some, and bitchy to others. But take me at face value...I am who I am. I do not and refuse to project an air that does not exist, nor will I twist the truth that it shall almost bend. I was taught not to lie. Why be so insecure to be afraid what others will think? I myself, am a woman, and us ladies do tend to have insecurities. But to live in a surreal utopia, to be lost amid the clouds of fantasy and survive upon the mere decadence of deceit. This I will never understand.

To be nice when everything in your inner self tells you not to be. When you want so greatly to call someone out upon their lies, their shroud of truth. But to calm yourself with the justification knowing this person knows. Knows to the depths of their soul that their life is yet of a wasteland, and the lies that spit forth from their mouth barely fool themselves anymore. They are merely living the motions of a living breathing being, but their self is lost. They're broken.